Same old

Tired of the same ol'

Rolling your eyes at the same ol'

I repeat ad infinitum, don't mess up my flow

Here I go...

The car won't start

I'm used to this

Get the jumper blahs

Positive one goes here blah

Problem solved blah

I take the 405 because it's faster than a unicycle

Sometimes there's traffic but I have no choice

I like the 405, I like risking my life for no reason

Makes me feel important

Sometimes I race the old lady in the slow lane and give her the finger

It adds some drama to her life, confirms everything she believes, gets her going

What gets me going?

Selfish careerism

Gold stars and trophy awards. Certificate of excellence in life and me.

I'm back on track

Track 1: get comfortable

Track 2: get ticked off

Track 3: write on Jujamist

Track 4: light myself on fire using the stove and some paper towels

Caso cerrado

FIXATION ON FREEDOM

One time, and it's now

I have been a loser

BUT NOW I'M READY FOR THE PAIN

This quest for greatness is now a quest for pain, for failure, for embarrassment....

To be ready for the quest is to be ready to die....and I am.

It's this man's time

To take his feather mattress and nutrition labels and Adidas sneakers and grow up

So here comes that feeling, that doubt filled with a rush of YES WE CAN

and that disturbing knowledge that burning your bridges is the only way

MY FAVORITE WAY

The confidence doesn't always pan out

But the desire never dies

Your dream is not a dream....it's everything

Is it worth just living?...just breathing?...just observing?...just being?

Of course it is!

But how much better is it to create, enact, change and overcome?

Meet the people and challenges and hopes and fantastic experiences reserved exclusively for a select few people that don't mind a little danger

Take your crazy mind and run towards failure.

I will be traveling the path of most resistance because there's less traffic.

I will get there before I die

Clouds

Well, the clouds are coming

They've been hovering (or brooding) in the East all week but now they're here

They're right over there, so I guess we'll need to do something about it

Cover the motorcycles with a blue tarp

Go upstairs and make sure all the windows are closed

Make sure all the kids are accounted for

Lightning

It's time for a reckoning

This storm will leave me lifeless or make me a king

Here it comes

It's pouring now and the shutters are slamming against the house in the wind

Sky is dark gray

Swirling leaves and battering wind - the house quivers

Driving rain pummels the windows

And then it's gone

Birds Chirping

Cheep Cheep - Cheep Cheep

Fresh sun peering out and healing

The clouds have drifted to the west

And my family and I

We're still here - safe, unscathed. Relieved.

Not any better or worse off than before.

But appreciating the life that we have, and the house that kept us safe

Bring on the next round of clouds! My fear is gone.

Perfect Mentality

Focus your mind
Control your emotions
Respect all living things
Be confident and compassionate
Conquer your fears
Life is akward and embarrassing, don't be afraid to go out of your comfort zone (tickle me elmo zone)
Love yourself
worship yourself, feed yourself, eat yourself, chew your toes and swim up the Nile

Be free!

hateful children

He looks on
loves for what will be
right now: dirty children, bastard children, runaway children, carnival children, hateful children, scared children
will be: loved children

we look on Him
longing for what will be
he was: dirty, beaten,bloodied, a sheep to the slaughter
now is: victorious

Death, where is thy sting
we are loved children
loved while we still hated
so that we would be made beautiful

"For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— 8but God shows his love for us in that(B) while we were still sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:7-8

So Moses made a bronze snake and put it up on a pole. Then when anyone was bitten by a snake and looked at the bronze snake, he lived. Numbers 21:9

confident

i climb a mountain
fog drifts away
sun peaks up
gold

Big problems, cancer problems, we all have problems

Enough with the problems....go to sleep
But here come the sleeping problems

...i can't sleep...problems sleeping

i cant escape the problems, the problems are becoming a problem

When will we get everything we want? When I was a kid i had everything i wanted. Being a kid was perfection. No health problems, no family problems, no friend problems, no girl problems, no mental problems, no financial problems, no career problems, no decisions to make,

nothing to do but live in the moment....

What about the warm sun, a sandy beach in the carribbean with a margarita and some chips and salsa?

....id rather be a kid coming home for a pizza bagel

Brand New Way

There are only six strings on a guitar
So it's all in how you pluck them

And there are only 24 hours in every day
So it's all in how you seize them

Tomorrow's not a brand new day
It's a brand new way

It's an opportunity to fail
Because that's the best thing we could hope for
To fail while risking
That's not failing at all, in fact
The only failure I know is never risking and being one

And special-ness is not a relative term
And recognition is not the goal
It's just about you and the people you care about
And sometimes it's just about you the principles you stand for
So just forget all the judgment and comparison
And be true to yourself only because you know it's right in and of itself to stand

Not standing in a figurative sense, but literally
What do you stand up for ever day,
Why get out of bed?

This is not a race to the top of Money Mountain
Or a battle to be the last man left
It's just a struggle to do your damnedest during this little window you've got
Before you tumble into that grave we're all headed to, bereft
The grave that doesn't diminish our significance but rather amplifies it

Don't settle ever, for anything
Then there will always be a new way to engage the day

MOTIVATION FOREVER

tomorrow is coming...

And they say it's a brand new day.

It's not a brand new day.

It's leftovers.

Smelly leftovers

And you're not really hungry

You have a dream

But the sting of failure and the smelly leftovers has squashed your dream

Fuck your dream.

And eat your smelly food

What's holding you back?

You don't think you can do it.

I doubt it too.

I doubt that your life will be special.

You're the kid who grew up somewhere and whatever.

Obituary 2071: Friend and Father, loving husband. Enjoyed movies and humor. Nothing special.

Does my saying this make you care less?

It should. You shouldn't care. You should know by now: just settle for everything.

Think like an old person: what's for lunch...i have to call Dr. Fred...i'm tired- going to bed early

Pitter patter....I hate the rain...days like these...routines...Tv...coffeee.....tv.....wall

Make a list of everything you don't like. There are probably some things you really don't like.

And then dig your grave

This one needs music

Put some music to these words
Throw some white emo, drums and guitar
It's late at night.
Noise canceling headphones
You're on an airplane over the Phillipines
My life is crazy, life is crazy

Pick up the tempo
Eb and flow
It's a rap
Enough of that

I could die
I could end my life
But it's getting better
My life is improving...Concerned, hesitation, ambition, setback, frustration

Expectations rise, dissapointments hit hard, but that's what I want

I want that pain, that nag that tells me not to settle for Benjamins and granite countertops.

Prime Minister of the United Kingdom of Great Britain and Northern Ireland, CEO of Apple, Inc, Malcom Gladwell, Head Coach for the New Orleans Saints.

Recognition is the carrot
The sting of mediocrity is the stick

Dancing to the melody of busboys and fishermen and fastfood cashiers.

At least I'm young

Apathy Addiction Disorder

There's a growing tide of complacency
It's eating your brainstem like cantaloupe and cottage cheese
It's laying waste your good intentions
It's snuffing your aspirations and eventually it'll snuff your respirations.

Because that complacency knows no boundaries
No, in fact it's multiplying still
It's in a positive feedback loop
With all intent to kill you.

But hey, who cares, right? Let's go watch Jeopardy
And luckily Wheel of Fortune precedes it so you can just vegetate all life long
To the white noise dirge of your television
While your pallbearers are lining up.

Because every time you say, "Meh, I'll do it tomorrow"
And, "Whatever. Who cares? Not me!"
Your brainstem attrition gets worse
And in inverse proportion, you're filled up with that glee of complacency.
But don't kid yourself: it's a disorder.

"Yay! I'm lazy! It's funny to be self-reflexive about my inaction!
All day every day I like to talk about ideas and act on none of them
And sometimes I blame others, and other times I blame myself, but I just
Sweep those ones under my rug
Because even blame can wait until tomorrow, and why feel down on myself anyway?
It's just my life."

Slap yourself.
Pour ice down your shirt.
Walk on coals and needles and punch a wall until you just wake up.
Stop embracing your addiction and laughing about it all cutesy
And just fucking dance.

Censor and Discourage

Lets take my mood,

lets make a poem

lets use the language ive acquired

lets call in English, lets call it sex

Lets run with it, bring it good

Happy thoughts burn brightly horror smiley death extasy Et-cet-er-a

Can we be great? Fucking hell fuckin yeah were gonna be champions......i want Cool Ranch Doritos

I want to find a prostitute on craigslist and talk to her about her job

I hope the spiders are happy tonight, I wouldnt want spiders to suffer needlessly

I live with 7 billion people. There werent 7 billion when I got here. I think people are having sex or something.

fizzle fizzle

Introspection

Can we get too deep when we philosophize and poeticize?

Conan says humor is simple, shouldnt be too cerebral

But this is life

Certainly the Ph.D.'s know no limit to depth.

They wonder why we wonder why we like sports.

I wonder why!?...............Yes we can get too deep.

Let's watch Anchorman again.

Let's pet the dog, she's cute.

It's better that wheel of fortune comes on after jeopardy. Makes me feel competent, makes life simple. And the routine.

[insert things you are familiar with]

Let's challenge our mind for a second....nah! Let's pretend I know everything and I'm doing my best.

posting is boasting

Is it all self-interest?

Am I brown-nosing God?

Is it a test?

I give out candy on halloween because i'm generous

I spent half an hour looking for a greeting card for my mom

I tipped the guy in the bathroom

I hold the door for people

New Topic:

Why can't I be happy? Why does my life suck? Why am I not moving towards my dreams?

Where is that amazing girl?

Life is good but it's not good.

I know! I know! I know! I know! I already fucking know. It's all on my shoulders. I get out what I put in. I'm being lazy.

Would I want happiness to be that easy??? WHY THE FUCK NOT!

put me on a drug, a happy drug, a happy place, a happy dream, a good time, a good laugh, a great laugh, passionate sex, exctasy, serenity, joy, un-asterisked happiness.

Conclusion: nothing!

Penis

I am currently sitting in my family room watching Wheel of Fortune

It rained outside today

I took the Dash bus to Fig and Adams and walked the rest of the way home

In the Rain

I called a bunch of people in Columbus

Progressively fewer people from Columbus are calling me

TV is a fortunate noise distraction masking loneliness

Masking an anxious sense that I am doing nothing

A great mind wasted

A youth spent toiling after nothing - a small paycheck.

"Security"

The rain reminds me of home. It always rains in Columbus

There are numerous Ohioans dreaming of coming to California to accomplish

To create

To become

I am out here - I've been here for 5 years.

What have I created? What have I accomplished? What have I become?

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God, please remind me that you are satisfied with me

Allow me to accept myself

And lead me to a peaceful and satisfied place

Where it only rains when I want it to

And TV programs are satisfying and fulfilling

And I'm surrounded at all times by friends and family

And life goes on and on and on, and every day has something new to look forward to

Pat, I'd like to solve the puzzle

waiting waiting

waiting
waiting
for Guffman
for Godot
for a offer letter

peace
peace
Peace I leave with you
My peace I give to you;
not as the world gives do I give to you.
Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.


family
family
coming today
joy together

giving
giving
everyone is giving
cars, inflatable mattresses
food, sleeping bags

rain
rain
slows down my thoughts
everything is coming together

jared explodes like a microwaved banana

banana-mana-fo-fana
bee-bye-bo-bana
can-a-man-explode-like-a
banana?

learning to hold the ball and be comfortable with it

under the basket
quick get the ball up quick
get the ball up
miss

hey stephen, slow it down

sorry

get the rebound
quick get the ball up quick
get the ball up
miss

hey man, slow it down
take your time

got it.

get the rebound
hold
hold
hooooold
get the ball up
in
good.

TRANSITION

under pressure
quick get the job quick
get the job
nothing

hey stephen, slow it down

ok

get the offer
quick get the job quick
get the job

hey man, slow it down
take your time

got it.

get the offer
hold
hold
hooooold
go to the basket
in
good.

caps for emphasis

ACTIVISM, ITS NOT HAPPENING
AND NOT IM TRYING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN
IM NOT TRYING TO MOTIVATE, ENERGIZE
ITS OVER

PEOPLE HAVE PROVEN THAT NOTHING WILL CHANGE
SHIFT REARRANGE, REORGANIZE, ORGANIZE, MOBILIZE, AND THEN DISSAPOINT

DON’T GET ME WRONG I WANT TO BELIEVE IN PEOPLE
I WANT TO TAKE MY TORCH AND HUNT THE DRAGON

I WANT THE RADIO FLYER TO BE MORE THAN A WAGON

I WANT A WHOLE ARMY OF MY COUNTRYMEN TO FIGHT IN DEFIANCE OF TYRANNY

BUT ITS SEAN CONNERY, NOT JAMES BOND
ITS CHANGE WE CAN BELIEVE IN, BUT BELIEVE FROM OUR SOFA
ITS HOMER SIMPSON INSTEAD OF HOMER
AND JENNIFER ANNISTON INSTEAD OF “WHO CARES ABOUT FUCKING JENNIFER ANNISTON”

ITS ALWAYS WORDS AND SYMBOLS AND IDEALOGIES
BUT THE ONLY CHAMPIONS I SEE ARE IN BUSINESS AND SPORTS
THE ONLY HEROES I HAVE ARE 20 YEAR OLDS TRAINED TO KILL ARABS
THE ONLY PERSON BEHIND ME IS NO ONE, NOT EVEN ME

CAUSE WHILE I DWELL ON MIKE HEROLD’S PROBLEMS
OBAMA DWELLS ON OBAMAS PROBLEMS
AND NO ONE VOTES FOR KUCINICH, NOT EVEN ME

ITS INEVTIABLE, THIS COUNTRY IS TOO BIG AND CONFIDENT FOR A REVOLUTION,
OUR BORDERS ARE TOO REAL, OUR ECONOMY IS TOO REAL, OUR RELIGION IS TOO REAL

COMPETITION IN EVERYTHING, COMPETITION IN EVERYTHING
COMPETITION IN EVERYTHING, COMPETITION IN EVERYTHING

AND WHILE WE WIN OUR SOFTBALL GAMES AND PROMOTIONS, THE WORLD PRAYS, MOTHERS CRY, AND FOR BETTER REASONS THAN WE CRY.

WE SUCK, OUR COUNTRY SUCKS. IS OUR COUNTRY GOOD? NO, IT SUCKS.

IT SUCKS BECAUSE IT’S THE LAND OF ME, THE LAND OF MY LIFE, WHO IS MY WIFE, AND WHAT IS MY SON DOING TO MAKE ME LOOK GOOD.

I WILL TELL YOU THAT CHINA IS BETTER, CHINA WON, CHINA WINS,
IN THE COMPETITION OF LOVE, PEACE, FAMILY, SIMPLICITY, AND TRADITION, CHINA PUTS US TO SHAME.

Up in Smoke?

She asked, "Mind if I smoke a cigarette?"
I said with a slightly forlorn grin, "A little.
But I've had a great time. I'm really glad we met!
Does it break Joe Camel's back that I said no?" Her: "A little."

I'm an open-minded guy. I'm ok if you're anything.
But am I ok if it's physical and not purely mental?
With smoking it's the whole 2nd-hand lung cancer thing.
With a smile it's the whole "I'm not attracted. Get dental."

But with thoughts and feelings, it's all good with me.
Had I first practiced prejudice, we'd not have had this affair.
We might even like each other. Is there a future? We'll have to see.
Plus, relationships are compromise, should smoking be one that I bear?

upward bound

i like dogs

i haven't a dog

i like brown retrieving, barking, snarling, friendly

i like coming home and instantly talking to a thing that does not understand me

....but seems to because i say things in a tone that excites him

i like that dogs don't judge

i like that dogs don't ask questions

i like that dogs don't shit on the carpet...wait

i like that dogs don't say, "clean up my shit"....better

a dog is a man's friend. a dog is loyal except in the movie "as good as it gets"

this poem is not about dogs though

it's about four-legged furry animals that bark and like to go for walks and eat kibble

that is what i am really talking about, that is the bigger picture

who cares if cats are smarter, dogs are dumber

i buy the dumbest, happiest dog i can find, and then i tell all the smarty pants cat-owner to see if the police is opening a feline division. Newsflash people: dogs are better.

Newsflash cat lovers- cats can't compete with the lovability and drinkability of bud light.

next dog's name: DO-IT

breed: Rhodesian Ridgeback

swing

swing
swing
pendulum
swing
swing

if i were a kid
with my hands
on the ropes
moving fast
through the air
this would be
fun!

if i were a kid
with my dreams
and my hopes
moving fast
risk and dare
this would be
fun!

swing
swing
pendulum
swing
swing

i'm 23
life's
up in the air
rent,doctor bills and direction.
having risked
turns out to be

not so fun

face

words, quite contrary to nerds

when money spends like air and caviar tastes like...i don't care

this is inflation, overindulgence makes nonsense of johnsons

let it ride...philosophy and physics aside

we're winning

we have food, we have an apartment, we've got chocolate mint

it all amounts to blue and shoe and bologna rhymes with phony.

laugh , smirk, lose weight, hire staff

it's lunacy

must not sleep

must not sleep

must not sleep


must not sleep



must not sleep





must not sleep

Fast poem

Jujamist is fast poems, lazy poems
But why can't we be lazy, homes?

They dont say homes anymore, it didn't last.
Jujamist might not last, but it helps the time pass

Suck it, get off, piece of...bitch ass mofo
All kinds of slang that come and go

Was Robert Frost a good poetI would say yes
Is jujamist better? sadly not i confess

It's language, it's a puzzle of words and sounds
and syntax and meaning, adjectives and nouns

This poem is done, my motivation has died
lazy poems are the best, cause i can't say i tried

Moments of Resolve in the Night, Dissolving

Whew!
It's been another long day.
You know, in the grind, plugging away.
A long day of talking, of the internet, of music.
A day long on day but short on work.
Which is what I was supposed to do and should have done.

Oh, it's just a fluke.
Tomorrow, I'll change!
Tomorrow, I'll focus!
Tomorrow, I'll work!

I'll block out my hours.
Wake up before eleven.
Not take a shower.
Work until seven.
I can do it. It's in me to do it.
I'm that guy who did it back then, remember?

Oh, wait. Oh, uh, whoops.
It's seven.
Time to eat.
Time to play.
Time to drink.
I can't possibly work in the remains of the day
Because it's too short to do any good work.

I'll wait until tomorrow.

The lights are off, but I stayed up too late.
I'll sleep in tomorrow
Since I can't be losing sleep over this.
That determination comes over me.
In the dark, I'm all-powerful.
I have the willpower.
I can be strong.
From now on, I'll be different.
I'll do it, just like old times.

I'll block out my hours.
Wake up before eleven.
Hit the snooze button.
And sleep until seven.

Luckily it's too late to do any work today.

This Selfish World

Lets stop denying it.

Lets stop lying to ourselves.

We are selfish creatures. People are, and always have been.

Quite easily 99.5% of people 99.5% of the time are selfish, self-driven, self-obsessed.

Where am I i, how do I look, how much is in my bank account....... we know no other way to view the world.

Where do I sleep, what do I want, how hungry am I, is there some for me?

What will I do tomorrow, what should I say....

So obvious, yet not acknowledged enough.

How can we begin to help strangers if every minute is dedicated to protecting self-interest. Here is a dollar mr. smellsbad, now get away from me.

Who is to blame? NO ONE.

This is sadly us, and there is sadly no changing how humans operate.

But there is deception. Gambling is a perfect example. The house is raking in the dough, but the people keep coming.

Charity casinos?!!!????!!!! NOOOOOOO

But we must trick people to help out of their own self-interest.

This is how the world will change. Not by changing people, but by redirecting them.

academia

learn it! learn it all.
history, art, art history, art history epistemology, history of epistemology, etc

Dominate, master, memorize and retain...
all this info, until someone asks you:

"how was Florence first settled?"
BAM: hit 'em with the knowledge
BAM: you're an expert

jeopardyesque savant, wizard of info, THAT is you =)

And when you have all that info, and when everyone is reading your articles, and as your comprehension is growing deeper and faster and theories are developing and publishers are knocking on your door, and your lectures are in high-demand, and your colleagues are huddling around you and your books are best-sellers....

We want, and we need experts! This is a good thing.

fireworks

dont say that
dont do that
stop that
over here
back up
left, a little more, ok
YES!
stand right there and say THANK YOU!
and really mean it!
Here are the rules: follow the rules , make sure other people follow the rules
And remember: when the rules are broken, someone is taking advantage of us
And also: all 6 billion people are following the rules, so you know it's important

Focus on Sotomayor and Sarah Palin
What is that celebrity doing with pain killers? Check that out
Avril Lavigne is married to another human

There you go, see how much fun the rules are!
Of course it doesn't make sense.

Jujamist Inauguration Day

It was the logical conclusion: the internet
When as the Jujamists we came from all corners of the Earth
From Norway, Finland, Texas, and Cali
Voices, four voices, a movement, a rally.
To indulge in what we'd always known:
The writing together and sharing of poems,
From our hearts to a blog, off the top of our domes.
Like lawn gnomes.

Pink is the new pink

Good work deraj.

My first poem

this kitchen is burning up
sweat sweat
lift my cap
wipe my forehead
man, this kitchen is burning up