posting is boasting

Is it all self-interest?

Am I brown-nosing God?

Is it a test?

I give out candy on halloween because i'm generous

I spent half an hour looking for a greeting card for my mom

I tipped the guy in the bathroom

I hold the door for people

New Topic:

Why can't I be happy? Why does my life suck? Why am I not moving towards my dreams?

Where is that amazing girl?

Life is good but it's not good.

I know! I know! I know! I know! I already fucking know. It's all on my shoulders. I get out what I put in. I'm being lazy.

Would I want happiness to be that easy??? WHY THE FUCK NOT!

put me on a drug, a happy drug, a happy place, a happy dream, a good time, a good laugh, a great laugh, passionate sex, exctasy, serenity, joy, un-asterisked happiness.

Conclusion: nothing!

Penis

I am currently sitting in my family room watching Wheel of Fortune

It rained outside today

I took the Dash bus to Fig and Adams and walked the rest of the way home

In the Rain

I called a bunch of people in Columbus

Progressively fewer people from Columbus are calling me

TV is a fortunate noise distraction masking loneliness

Masking an anxious sense that I am doing nothing

A great mind wasted

A youth spent toiling after nothing - a small paycheck.

"Security"

The rain reminds me of home. It always rains in Columbus

There are numerous Ohioans dreaming of coming to California to accomplish

To create

To become

I am out here - I've been here for 5 years.

What have I created? What have I accomplished? What have I become?

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God, please remind me that you are satisfied with me

Allow me to accept myself

And lead me to a peaceful and satisfied place

Where it only rains when I want it to

And TV programs are satisfying and fulfilling

And I'm surrounded at all times by friends and family

And life goes on and on and on, and every day has something new to look forward to

Pat, I'd like to solve the puzzle

waiting waiting

waiting
waiting
for Guffman
for Godot
for a offer letter

peace
peace
Peace I leave with you
My peace I give to you;
not as the world gives do I give to you.
Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.


family
family
coming today
joy together

giving
giving
everyone is giving
cars, inflatable mattresses
food, sleeping bags

rain
rain
slows down my thoughts
everything is coming together

jared explodes like a microwaved banana

banana-mana-fo-fana
bee-bye-bo-bana
can-a-man-explode-like-a
banana?

learning to hold the ball and be comfortable with it

under the basket
quick get the ball up quick
get the ball up
miss

hey stephen, slow it down

sorry

get the rebound
quick get the ball up quick
get the ball up
miss

hey man, slow it down
take your time

got it.

get the rebound
hold
hold
hooooold
get the ball up
in
good.

TRANSITION

under pressure
quick get the job quick
get the job
nothing

hey stephen, slow it down

ok

get the offer
quick get the job quick
get the job

hey man, slow it down
take your time

got it.

get the offer
hold
hold
hooooold
go to the basket
in
good.

caps for emphasis

ACTIVISM, ITS NOT HAPPENING
AND NOT IM TRYING TO MAKE IT HAPPEN
IM NOT TRYING TO MOTIVATE, ENERGIZE
ITS OVER

PEOPLE HAVE PROVEN THAT NOTHING WILL CHANGE
SHIFT REARRANGE, REORGANIZE, ORGANIZE, MOBILIZE, AND THEN DISSAPOINT

DON’T GET ME WRONG I WANT TO BELIEVE IN PEOPLE
I WANT TO TAKE MY TORCH AND HUNT THE DRAGON

I WANT THE RADIO FLYER TO BE MORE THAN A WAGON

I WANT A WHOLE ARMY OF MY COUNTRYMEN TO FIGHT IN DEFIANCE OF TYRANNY

BUT ITS SEAN CONNERY, NOT JAMES BOND
ITS CHANGE WE CAN BELIEVE IN, BUT BELIEVE FROM OUR SOFA
ITS HOMER SIMPSON INSTEAD OF HOMER
AND JENNIFER ANNISTON INSTEAD OF “WHO CARES ABOUT FUCKING JENNIFER ANNISTON”

ITS ALWAYS WORDS AND SYMBOLS AND IDEALOGIES
BUT THE ONLY CHAMPIONS I SEE ARE IN BUSINESS AND SPORTS
THE ONLY HEROES I HAVE ARE 20 YEAR OLDS TRAINED TO KILL ARABS
THE ONLY PERSON BEHIND ME IS NO ONE, NOT EVEN ME

CAUSE WHILE I DWELL ON MIKE HEROLD’S PROBLEMS
OBAMA DWELLS ON OBAMAS PROBLEMS
AND NO ONE VOTES FOR KUCINICH, NOT EVEN ME

ITS INEVTIABLE, THIS COUNTRY IS TOO BIG AND CONFIDENT FOR A REVOLUTION,
OUR BORDERS ARE TOO REAL, OUR ECONOMY IS TOO REAL, OUR RELIGION IS TOO REAL

COMPETITION IN EVERYTHING, COMPETITION IN EVERYTHING
COMPETITION IN EVERYTHING, COMPETITION IN EVERYTHING

AND WHILE WE WIN OUR SOFTBALL GAMES AND PROMOTIONS, THE WORLD PRAYS, MOTHERS CRY, AND FOR BETTER REASONS THAN WE CRY.

WE SUCK, OUR COUNTRY SUCKS. IS OUR COUNTRY GOOD? NO, IT SUCKS.

IT SUCKS BECAUSE IT’S THE LAND OF ME, THE LAND OF MY LIFE, WHO IS MY WIFE, AND WHAT IS MY SON DOING TO MAKE ME LOOK GOOD.

I WILL TELL YOU THAT CHINA IS BETTER, CHINA WON, CHINA WINS,
IN THE COMPETITION OF LOVE, PEACE, FAMILY, SIMPLICITY, AND TRADITION, CHINA PUTS US TO SHAME.

Up in Smoke?

She asked, "Mind if I smoke a cigarette?"
I said with a slightly forlorn grin, "A little.
But I've had a great time. I'm really glad we met!
Does it break Joe Camel's back that I said no?" Her: "A little."

I'm an open-minded guy. I'm ok if you're anything.
But am I ok if it's physical and not purely mental?
With smoking it's the whole 2nd-hand lung cancer thing.
With a smile it's the whole "I'm not attracted. Get dental."

But with thoughts and feelings, it's all good with me.
Had I first practiced prejudice, we'd not have had this affair.
We might even like each other. Is there a future? We'll have to see.
Plus, relationships are compromise, should smoking be one that I bear?